| New and Improved |
[Sep. 4th, 2009|07:21 pm] |
I will not look back at this year as a year of incredible losses but a year of incredible lessons.
I have learned more about my self, my family, my friends, my love, and life as a whole in this one year than I thought I could handle. But life goes on. There is a tomorrow and tomorrow and tomorrow. There is happiness still left to be had. For all of us.
This is not something I would have said a year ago. I would have wallowed in childlike sadness.
Perhaps this is adulthood.
So just one more thing to say goodbye to. Goodbye journal. It's been swell.
*Oh, and Norman Perry is my hero.* |
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| (no subject) |
[Jul. 7th, 2009|03:05 pm] |
Leaf by Leaf page by page
Throw this book away
All the sadness all the rage
Throw this book away
Rip out the binding, tear the glue
All of the grief we never ever knew
We had it all along
Now its smoke
The things we've written in it
Never really happened
All of the people come and gone
Never really lived
All of the people come have gone
No one to forgive smoke
We will not write a new one
There will not be a new one
Another one, another one
Here's an evening dark with shame
Throw it on the fire
here's the time I took the blame
Throw it on the fire
Here's the time we didn't speak
it seemed for years and years
Here's a secret
No one will ever know the
reasons for the tears
They are smoke
Where do all the secrets live
They travel in the air
You can smell them when they burn
They travel
Those who say the past is not dead
Stop and smell the smoke
You keep on saying the past is not dead
Come on and smell the smoke
You keep saying the past is not even past
You keep saying
We are, smoke |
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| Holding my breath. |
[Apr. 11th, 2009|03:51 pm] |
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Made it through first cut. Awaiting phone call of a life time. |
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| A sudden urge to do nothing. |
[Jan. 16th, 2009|01:02 am] |
Super movie sneak in weekend this Saturday with Peej. Three movies for the price of one.
Finally I can see Re
This thought interrupted by the realization that I CAN HEAR MY ROOM MATES HAVING SEX RIGHT NOW. Oh my god I want to vomit. |
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| I'll own this pond. |
[Jan. 4th, 2009|04:29 pm] |
I want this more than anything else.
I need to fuel a fire that has, as of recently, gone out.
Winter is just such a sad time. Regardless, I have to keep my eyes glued on my objective here. I can't continue to lose sight of what I've made all these changes in my life for. What I've made him uproot his life for.
I'm a damn good actress, and I am never going to quit. |
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| k |
[Dec. 18th, 2008|08:29 pm] |
Sometimes I feel like a bad friend. Being busy is not an excuse for not calling just to say hi.
I had dream she died. It was very vivid. I didn't see her die, just her body. But her body was talking, asking if everything was okay and why everyone was so upset.
I worry about her health on a daily basis. I worry about her life. I don't think she takes care of herself. I want to take care of her.
I love her. |
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| Magnolia |
[Dec. 11th, 2008|08:02 pm] |
You look like a perfect fit for a girl in need of a tourniquet.
But you can save me . Come on and save me.
If you could save me, from the ranks of the freaks who suspect they could never love anyone.
I can tell you know what it's like.
The long farewell of a hunger strike.
But you could save me. Come on and save me. If you could save me from the ranks of the freaks who suspect they could never love anyone.
You struck me dumb like radium. Like Peter Pan or Superman.
You will come to save me. Come on and save me. If you could save me from the ranks of the freaks who suspect they could never love anyone
except the freaks who suspect they could never love anyone except the freaks who suspect they could never love anyone. |
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| Corridor |
[Nov. 29th, 2008|09:46 pm] |
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I'm alone in my apartment. It's very quiet. |
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| Hmph |
[Nov. 26th, 2008|01:34 am] |
Needless to say, Twilight was a disappointment. A major disappointment.
But hey, Mr. Pattinson, you are one fine boy. |
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